to begin with

To begin with, I'd like my first entry to be a good shot. I wanted it to be presentable in all aspects -especially the content. So that if ever people would see this, which is quite impossible, they would still have a good image of me.

But I am not okay, and I cannot lie to myself, what more to God. He knows me better than I know myself. Though I want to think I am okay, but I am not.

I've seen how I attached my identity to the things I have, I do, and I can do. I have become secured as a person because of the temporal things of this world. Things that God took away from me.

Whenever people would ask me "who I am, and what I do for living" today, I feel so insecure to answer that I am unemployed.

Well, what God is teaching me today is to learn to be secured in Him alone. I literally have nothing now. I don't have anything to brag to people. IT IS PAINFUL. And God is saying, wait patiently Son. Follow me, and it will be sweet. Don't feel alone, I'm here. :)